Redesign ??

A bunch of things are seen breaking or more not moving...
like my life, my thoughts, my dreams..
they are stagnant, they are dying of suffocations..
they need to come out..

someone has well said, All paid jobs in this world degrade one's intellectuality.

These are nonsense, because its me who decides what I want to be tomorrow and I chose my workplace and nothing else.

I am not working for last 2 weeks, some are done with hazar errs and some are not touched yet.

Few years back, I chose computer to be my better companion than neone else.

She showed me a whole diff world of creation , more than what I ever asked her to show me.

I accepted to make her a major part my life and we happily spent endless hours n dayz.

I bugged her so much, still she never complained.

But today I feels like I don't want her anymore.Again I am alone.
I don't feel her anymore, though she is still sitting right in front of me.
But I am helpless, I can't leave her anymore
I have to go back to her tomorrow.

Is the whole thing needs to be redesigned? Would it hav been better then.

Hey what crap I wrote down just now.